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Mar 26th, 2008 | By Barbara | Category: Insights

Morning!

March is almost over, can you believe that! Soon I’ll have to start planning for Camp Ling. Last year’s theme was Naruto; I think this year will be Youtube and creating humor videos (as well as the usual academics, science, karate, etc).

And speaking about karate! Yesterday was so utterly superb for me I was one happy camper. You see, after spending the weekend trying to figure out just why I had panicked during sparring, I made a promise to myself that I would face such a fear one more time and decimate it myself. And I did! It’s astonishing the difference that keeping one’s eyes open makes.

Seriously, though, I acquitted myself quiet decently for someone of my (ahem) lack of skills. Still got knocked flat and still failed to block some head shots but this time, instead of panicking me, I choose to get more calm and just, well, flow *mentally*. When I returned home, I told my kid, Kid, you’re have been proud of your mom….and for me, that really said it all.

Other excellent martial arts news – another of my kids, known for his lack of bravery, threw himself into sparring and didn’t give up. He got thoroughly thrashed and the sensei told him, I’ll say this for you – most kids would be crying now and you’re still up. Kid was proud of that but more importantly, kid recognized that even when he was scared, he could still choose NOT to give up. I cuddled him for 8 minutes after that bout. It reminded me so very much of how truly dynamic people are….give them a chance to shine and wow, watch them take it.

Brazilian Juijitsu class – great fun as always. Had a new guy in class whom I was actually able to pin with leverage! Amazing. And got thoroughly flattened myself with the advanced students…but hey, it’s character building. Slowly (very slowly) it’s all coming together.

Workwise – wheeeee! I wrote:

So! It’s time to start the day.

Enjoy,

Barbara

ps – speaking about YouTube!

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