Oh wow.
Wow, wow……WOW.
What a day…and it's only 2:08pm!
But I've done enough foundation-laying now to keep me busy for the next bazillion years (while I'm not making Ninja sites, that is!).
Here's what happened. I hope you really enjoy the following and make certain to read it all, where you'll find *the* critical takeaways for….you.
As you might remember, a few days ago I failed more fiercely than 57 ravenous lions who tried brazenly robbing a vegetarian restaurant.
The details are unimportant; the main takeaway was, I had two choices before me.
Wallow in regrets or take that energy and make money from it.
Actually, I did both. 🙂
And I cleared 3 figures from it.
Yay!
Well! Yesterday before taking my daughter to karate swords class, I made a promise to myself that I would:
- Start being more selfish
- Look out solely for me
That sorta thing.
I deleted a domain that I had created with the best of intentions, figuring that if it hadn't been accessed for 3 weeks, why the hell should I keep it alive?
But for some reason….the resulting emotions….just….weren't…..good.
To be honest, my decision bothered me bigtime, but I made certain to ignore those feelings and barrel ahead. Wheee!
And then it was time for swords class.
In a word….*wow*. I drove my daughter to the dojo and during the trip…..
We talked.
And talked.
And talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked and talked……
See, my daughter brought up a fanfic she had read that made her confront issues of:
- redemption
- boundary pushing
- tolerance
- acceptance
While she was explaining it all, I had the oddest reaction imaginable.
I felt forced to examine my own personal feelings about how I chose to honor my inner spirit.
I HATED THAT!!!!!!!!!
- I had *just* given myself permission to be selfish.
- I had *just* given myself permission to write off several folk.
And now my brilliantly magnificent daughter made me reivisit the whole hellish issue again.
Well, okay, she didn't *make* me….I chose to be open to the wisdom she was sharing.
Did I mention how much I *hated* that??????
Anywhos!
I realized that by being selfish (and stay with me here, the following is key)…I was forcing myself to be like some of the others with whom I had interacted.
And that was *not* the right thing to do….by a long shot.
So!
After returning home, I reactivated the domain in question but did add the note, "Please drop me a line if it stops updating." You see, I had pre-populated the site until the first week of September….and hey, if it's wanted after that, I'll be happy to continue it.
But if not, I now choose not to expend any additional effort on it.
That just plain makes sense for me – if it ever is valued, I will happily keep adding to it. But if not, my efforts are better put elsewhere. In short….
It was the right thing to do.
Which now brings me to the point of this post!
I was all bound, set and determined to change the way I was.
And then my guardian angel compelled my daughter to have that conversation to me…thus shaking me up, slapping me upside the head and causing me to realize I had chosen *wrong*.
Who'd have thought a discussion about Team Fortress 2 Fanfic could have that effort?
Sure as hell….not me!
Thus, I'd like to share with you the best wisdom gained from the whole adventure.
And it's this.
*Always* but *always* be open to goodness that is knocking on the various doors in your life.
You might at first discount it because it's weird, or the messenger is too old or too young or too emo or too zany or too space-alieny or ….you get the point, right?
Do *not* throw it away without first giving yourself permission to examine the knowledge in front of you.
True.
It can really hurt you.
And really force you to confront some massive ghosts as well.
But…*if* you can end up healing yourself, letting the past go, and giving yourself permission to move on….it's valuable beyond belief.
Tomorrow, I'll reveal the other benefit of the past day of character-building (you'll be shocked with my new direction!). For now, however, just take it from me.
Having the courage to face your demons can power you up beyond your wildest dreams.
And you can take *that*…to the bank.
Grow strong,
Barbara Ling
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